motivation! what's that?
I'm clueless.
Sorry you feel alone... really. My depression takes away my motivation and I just resign myself to it. When it does come back I try to make up for lost time, phone calls, chores, going OUT, brushing my teeth, etc.
you've come back to the right place. Here you're not alone.
It sucks right now, but it will pass like it has before... that's my experience.
Hang in there and be gentle with yourself.
If I start listening to those voices that say I just need a good swift kick in the ass, it only makes me feel worse.
We are human and worthy of love, even (especially) from ourselves.

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Thanks you

I can COMPLETELY relate
(and your post was no rant!)
I have consistantly been neglectful of myself
and chores, I hardly ever clean anything
anymore, and I also used to be a neat freak -
very organized and everything in it's place -
it gave me an outlet for my OCD tendencies..now...
I'm a complete disaster.

Taking meds is so important...I would be awful
about taking my meds had I not put them as part
of the normal daily rituals I do...even then I miss a day here
and there, and I take my meds at wake and sleep cycles.
I know I would once again be a paranoid basket case if I didn't take
my anxiety meds, and I never want to go back to that, so those
are easy to take....sometimes I forget to take my antidepressant
when I wake up, but I can go a day or two without too much effect,
so that's less an issue.

It might help you if you could tie your meds to a daily ritual -
- ... create a ritual if you need to.
I'm sorry the jerk/jerkette bailed on you; but you need to keep that
in perspective - that was'nt a comment about you; it's a comment on
how the other person operates...poorly and inconsiderately - not
someone you need in your life anyway!

And you DID something about being alone...
you logged on, and shared...and got support....
that's not nothing!
Hang in there!
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I know how you feel, I've been there. It's very hard to focus on anything I want or need to get done lately. Despite otherwise feeling well this week my focus has been less than ideal by a significant degree. Part of it is my plans for this week were changed (not by me, but things I wanted to do with others.) That had a larger impact than I wanted.

I know it is hard, but try and take your scripts as written/directed by a doctor. I know at times that itself is a challenge, but hopefully they'll help negate or improve this situation. If they aren't working when you've taken them for a bit, talk to your doctor and let him know so something else can be tried. They aren't a fix all, believe me, but they can help sometimes. They've helped me, but not everyone has the success I've had, plus it may take a while--a LONG while to get the right meds--it took my doctor years to find things that work.