Just one of those weekend that remind me, I'm not "well" and probably never will be completely.
*sighs*
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Re: Not doing so well.
Mon, July 21, 2008 - 12:09 PMWell, we're here for ya if you want to talk about it. Otherwise, I hope your week goes better.
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Mon, July 21, 2008 - 1:16 PMYeah, sorry to hear that Tim. What would "well" mean for you? -
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Mon, July 21, 2008 - 1:49 PMWow, Struggling, you took the words right out of my..., er, keyboard.
Sending mucho love to you, my friend Tim. -
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Wed, July 23, 2008 - 2:58 AMDarla, Do you think if a bunch of people like us would automatically start something close to a group session..? Has any one here gone to group sessions, especially those of us that have felt like Tim has been feeling... I never have been to anything like that at all, closest was spirited discussions on a late night drinking bout in a smokey bar....
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Wed, July 23, 2008 - 3:00 AMBoy I got to edit before I post.... I have felt like Tim and many others do... I haven't been to any group meetings or clinical situations for my depression... sorry for mix up.... -
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Wed, July 23, 2008 - 7:06 AMTim, you said: . No more hurt from memories. Not that my memories are as tragic as some, just that they drag me down and twist me up, well enough.
While there is a scale of tragedy, I don't think it's applicable to pain. This happened to you and it was HUGE; this happened to me and it was little - I have had some pretty serious shit go down in my life, but I don't think that somehow that diminishes other people's pain. Stubbed toe or surgery - it gets all your attention. I mean, when you are in the throes of a stubbed toe, and I mean a really stubbed toe, can you think of anything else? Yet when one thinks of cancer, it seems so small. Is this making sense? (I am only on my first cup of coffee, so be kind!).
As my old therapist used to say to me, it is hardly ever helpful to compare oneself to others...especially with depression, you never come out ahead.
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Wed, July 23, 2008 - 8:42 AMWell said Darla.
When I am trying to heal, although I am trying to strengthen my weakness and that's often an uphill battle, I try to balance it out with the strengths by working within there too. Everyone has strengths, despite their difficulties. Like Darla said pain and struggling are yours and cannot be comparable. I just try to find inspiration in those who do have difficult times to see how they have coped and try to emulate that success they had in my own style.
I hope you feel better soon!
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Wed, July 23, 2008 - 2:01 AMAble to work again, able to sleep, able to focus on what I need to get done (at least as much as I used to)
No more loneliness. No more hurt from memories. Not that my memories are as tragic as some, just that they drag me down and twist me up, well enough.
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Mon, July 21, 2008 - 3:21 PMWell Tim, I wish you well, Did this major funk sneak up on you? or was it just building and the weekend just gave you time to reflect on it...? -
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Mon, July 21, 2008 - 4:28 PMI'm not sure anyone is ever completely well. I know I'm not.... but the bouts of non-well get further and further apart, generally.
I hope things look up soon. And I think asking 'what does well mean?" is a really good question. I'm gonna think about that for myself too.
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Wed, July 23, 2008 - 2:04 AMI was alright for a bit, but things that happened over the weekend (disappointments, friends behavior, little things that gnaw on what little stability I cling to..) caused me to break a bit again. The always nagging of life alone--no relationships (and stupid meds that make my sex drive like twice what it should be at my age) combined with pains of the past--memories of lies of those women I once loved. It just won't ever let me go completely, I try so hard to forget, to bury myself in ANYTHING but the solitude of that insanity and pain.
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